In Chapter Three, Will Smith writes about challenges he faces when it comes to romantic relationships. All his life he’s been “haunted by an agonizing sense" that he's "failing the women (he) loves."
“Over the years, in my romantic relationships, I would always do too much. Coddling, overprotecting, desperately trying to please them, even when they were totally fine,” he writes. “This insatiable desire to please manifested as an exhausting neediness.”
He adds that, for him, love was a performance and if his partner wasn’t clapping, “I was failing. To succeed in love, the ones you care for must constantly applaud. Spoiler alert: This is not a way to have a healthy relationship.”
The year was 1990 when Smith first saw his future wife at an audition for “The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air.” Pinkett Smith did not get the role of portraying Smith’s girlfriend on the show because she "wasn’t tall enough." She “was pissed,” he writes
When Smith went up to say hello, Pinkett Smith ignored him without stopping. "That was the first time I saw Jada Pinkett," he writes. "It was love at first sight."
But their romance took a while. Smith went on to meet and marry his first wife, Sheree Zampino. They welcomed a son, Trey, in 1992.
Smith and Zampino were married from 1992 to 1995. To now better understand his "ride and die" situation with Pinkett Smith, he writes about how he never believed in divorce.
“I would never have gotten married if I thought divorce was an option,” he writes about his first marriage. “If quitting is a possibility, everyone will pick that — it’s the easiest one.”
Smith was adamant that it was “til death do us part.”
Smith recalled the moment Zampino filed for divorce during a “Red Table Talk“ appearance in 2018.
“She hit me hard,” he said.
“I was like, ‘Ouch! Ouch! And I still told her, I said, ‘No. You can’t have a divorce and she hit me with the, ‘So you’re going to make somebody stay with you who doesn’t love you?’ And I said, ‘I’m actually not. Nope, I’m not. And that was the one that got me,” he said.
When Zampino filed for divorce, Smith called up Pinkett Smith and told her that he was now single and wanted to be with her. The two had run into each other over the years, but always kept it platonic.
While dating, Pinkett Smith found out that she was pregnant with her first child, Jaden. Smith wanted to get married, but “Jada didn’t believe in conventional marriage and despised the traditional ceremony.”
“She also had questions about the viability of monogamy as a framework for successful long-term relationships,” he writes.
The “Girls Trip” star only agreed to a wedding after her mom, Adrienne Banfield-Norris, called Smith begging to talk to Pinkett Smith and make her reconsider.
“Jada held her ground as long as she could, but pretty soon, the ‘wedding pressure’ became too much. She was in her second trimester, she was tired and uncomfortable, and didn’t want to argue,” Smith writes, adding that Pinkett Smith finally agreed to have a wedding ceremony.
However, the actor told her mom that she had to plan the wedding. Smith and Pinkett Smith got married on New Year’s Day in 1997.
“Gam was ecstatic. To this day, Jada refers to our ceremony as ‘Gammy’s Wedding,’” Smith recalls, later adding, “And while the event itself was joyful and heartwarming, this would be the first of many compromises Jada would make over the years that painfully negated her own values. She had boarded the Will Train, and there was no way off.”
Pinkett Smith addressed the wedding on a 2018 episode of “Red Table Talk." She said she felt “pressured” by her mother to walk down the aisle.
“I was under so much pressure being a young actress and pregnant, and I didn’t know what to do,” she said.
Banfield-Norris apologized for not respecting her wishes.
“I’m sorry that I didn’t respect your wishes. It was, ‘I’ll never have that experience of my daughter getting married’ because you were my only child,” she said.
They would go on to welcome son Jaden Smith on July 8, 1998, and daughter Willow Smith on Oct. 31, 2000.
As their family grew, Smith writes he was “consumed by the dream of the Smith family.” To along with the dream, he wanted to buy a 256-acre compound — one that Pinkett Smith did not want.
She expressed how it was too big, too expensive and too much space, Smith writes. Smith bought it anyway.
“This was Jada’s second great compromise, the next stop on the ever-accelerating Will Train,” he writes, before giving his “young make readers” a friendly note: “No means no.”
“Nothing good comes from spending your hard-earned money on a ‘family home’ that your wife doesn’t want. You are putting a down payment on discord and for years you will be paying off a mortgage of misery. Or, worse,” he shares.